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My Struggle With Anxiety, And Coming Back After A Break.

After a major case of writer’s block, my New Year’s Resolution this year was to post here on my blog on a regular basis, or at the very least a semi regular basis. However, when January 1st came around, a crippling amount of “what if” thoughts arrived with it. What to write about first? ShouldContinue reading “My Struggle With Anxiety, And Coming Back After A Break.”

Autism Assessment – Honest and Raw. Why It’s Taken So Long To Post.

First of all, I need to apologise for taking so long to post this. I hope once you have read through this post, you will understand why, and forgive me. The timing finally feels right to share my story now, what with it being Autism Awareness/Acceptance month. For the longest time I couldn’t write aboutContinue reading “Autism Assessment – Honest and Raw. Why It’s Taken So Long To Post.”

A Very Broken System

WARNING: If swearing offends you, especially the use of the “F” word, this post is not for you, so please scroll past. For the past 2 weeks I’ve been suicidal again. Unfortunately I’ve been here many times before, so I’m very familiar with how my spiral downwards plays out. Last Thursday, as soon as theContinue reading “A Very Broken System”

Adult Autism Assessment Prep

I’ve been debating how I was going to word this post for a few weeks now, but no matter how long I leave it, it remains very much a jumble in my head, so that is likely how it’s going to come out here. I have my adult autism assessment coming up in just 10Continue reading “Adult Autism Assessment Prep”

Lions and Tigers and Bears, Oh My!! Or was it Dragons?!

*Warning – contains graphic descriptions* Sunday started out like any other Sunday, or rather, like every Sunday has been for the last 5 months since moving here. It was calm, quiet, peaceful, just pottering about…….Until I brushed my teeth after my tea at 6.30pm. The second the bristles hit the left side of my mouth,Continue reading “Lions and Tigers and Bears, Oh My!! Or was it Dragons?!”

The Day My Heart Broke

It has taken me almost a week to be able to write this post. There has been several false starts, but hopefully this will be the time I manage to get the story told. On the 10th July 2020, I had a message from my friend who was/is looking after my dog(s), and told whatContinue reading “The Day My Heart Broke”

A Seriously Crap Day. Adult Autism Referral.

*I don’t expect you to read my mahoosive post, I just needed to get it out of my system. Blood relatives have been blocked from this post * As you all know, the last 4 months for me have been rather intense, thanks to leaving my abusive, alcoholic husband in secret, and moving 400 milesContinue reading “A Seriously Crap Day. Adult Autism Referral.”

The Tale of the Absent Noodles

For my American friends, for the purpose of this story, you need to know that Tesco is one of our larger grocery store chains, and that “Super Noodles” are Ramen.Tesco happens to be my closest grocery store. At a smidgen under a mile away, it is the only superstore in walkable distance, and the walkContinue reading “The Tale of the Absent Noodles”

Attack of the Evil Seagulls…

Picture the scene, the whole of the UK is experiencing a heatwave, and we are not prepared for it, especially here in Scotland. Unlike other countries who experience warm summers, we don’t get the gradual warm up and decrease in temperatures in spring and autumn to adapt, we go from winter to summer and thenContinue reading “Attack of the Evil Seagulls…”

…And The Stress Keeps Coming

When I first left my husband 13 weeks ago, I stupidly assumed that that would be the most stressful part, both moving so far away and living on my own for the very first time, and processing everything that had happened, and accepting how bad things had gotten, and that I couldn’t have done anyContinue reading “…And The Stress Keeps Coming”